MY SOUL ROAMS WITH THE SEA.

it should not be this difficult to figure out how to explain how you feel

UO is having a sale tomorrow.
I will be visiting UO tomorrow.

Falling asleep to the rain makes me miss you, wherever you are.

I’ve decided I’m tired of people going half way for me. You can put yourself out there and risk looking like a fool if I don’t feel the same and you can put your foot in the door and actually talk to me again and as more and you can take the chance because I have for so long and just one time, I want to be surprised that someone would do that for me.

I know that right now you are packing all your things together or you’re most likely already gone. I know you’re not coming to say goodbye and I know that it’s just over. I’ll try to act like it didn’t happen because I know I’m not getting what I want this time. But just know that last night, when I was leaving I turned back and saw you standing at the door considering whether or not to turn around. I knew that you wouldn’t because I know how much I wanted to but didn’t.

Honestly, you just touched some chord in me that hasn’t even been thought about for so long. It’s a little difficult to just act like it didn’t happen and I didn’t feel anything.

But where can a girl watch friends online…… Really though.

I guess it hurts a bit but I’m over it now,

Heartaches and mistakes, how many hits can a good girl take?

“Don’t wanna be your just for fun, don’t wanna be under your thumb, all I wanna be in done.”

You start to sway again, feeling good in your skin,
You start to remember when you didn’t have to try,
And then the glitter turns to dust, the color fades enough,
To make out pictures of a fire that burns like love.

Take a breath and listen, open up, stop pushing,
All that you’ve been missing is standing in front of you.

You are in the Valley of Misery, a place of anger, depression and hurt. The person who hurt you—who raped you or killed your family—is also here. If you are still angry at that person, if you haven’t been able to forgive, you are chained to him. Above you is the Mountain of Peace and Prosperity, where we all want to go. But when you try to climb that hill, the person you haven’t forgiven weighs you down. It’s a personal choice whether or not to let go. Nobody can tell you how long to mourn a death or rage over a rape. But you can’t move forward until you break that chain.
―
Leymah Gbowee, Mighty Be Our Powers

Cause you’ve set me on fire, I’ve never felt so alive,

Hoping wounds heal, but it never does, that’s because you’re at war with love,

And I’m at the point of breaking and it’s impossible to shake it.

I think I’ll pretend like your excuse wasn’t a lie when you just cancelled on me because it really sounded like it was.

“I’m not even trying, but I can’t stop smiling,
Do you think about me like I think about you?”

He’s tailor made for you, with stunning golden hues.